Thought

Fact: My first thought is always my best thought
Fact: I should always listen to my first thought
Fiction: I do always listen to my first thought
Fact: I rarely listen to my first thought
Fact: My logic takes over the instant that first thought is complete
Fiction: I am not a logical person
Fiction: I am not an emotional person
Fact: I need to be more diligent about that first thought

Intuition cannot be defined. It can be felt and can be heard and is often times referred to as "your first thought." It seems easy to just listen to it but you don't realize how much your logical brain takes over your thought process until you try to stop it...it's really quite difficult...

Feeling out of it

Airplane Dreeam

I had this crazy dream last night. Two people who I will call Lazy and Fly were in it. Lazy is one of my best friends at Tech. Anyway so in my dream me and Fly were sitting next to each other across from Lazy and this other guy and we're in this really big room with glass walls that's in a school. It was after hours so there were very very few people there and we were working on homework or something, I don't remember. Anyway I noticed a plane taking off nearby and it looked like an amateur was flying it. It was a really rough take off. While we're all working I keep noticing this stupid plane (which by the way was a full sized airline plane so this is no small plane I'm talking about) flying clumsily along. The pilot was really having a hard time with it. Then it got reeeeeeally close to the building and scared me for a second and I though that maybe we should leave. The last time I noticed the plane it was heading straight for us but it was nose down and the pitot tube (the long pointy thing at the nose of a plane) scraped the top of the glass wall and then the building was shaking like crazy! And then the plane just fell right through the ceiling and as it was falling, a giant piece of the concrete roof fell pinning the one guy and killing Lazy instantly. I woke up the instant it killed him.

Feeling confused...

The Brainwasher

I've been asleep for nearly the past 14 hours, mostly in a bed but a bit on the bus (heading back to tech) and now I'm wide awake again procrastinating work sitting here listening to Chevelle and thinking. Just thinking. About my friends my family my fantasies and I've been going through the same stupid phase that I went through in high school. I'm rediscovering which of my huge list of friends are actually true friends and which I will most likely never talk to after college. That number of true friends, like in high school is very low, and you know who you are because I've talked to you about this before. It's just strange realizing how alone we are in this world especially considering how many people occupy it. This is just more proof I guess that I need to find myself, be comfortable with myself, and live with myself. I read somewhere that you're not truly happy until you can confidently say that you would still be happy even after everything is taken away and all that is left is you...I'm working on it.

Feeling disappointed

Note to Self

Random:

Since I'm an early Aries, I NEVER finish what I start....I'm interested to see if I will even stay up to date on this damn thing...and if so for how long.....

End note

Live, Love, Pray

So, this blog is a starter about my life and the strange things in it. And for your information I purposely misspelled dragon to "dagron" because of my dear friend Strong Bad and his creation that is Trogdor, the Burninator.

Let me start by saying I go to Georgia Tech and I'm currently procrastinating a shit ton of work that I have to do. Things like this are reasons why I am falling behind with only 14 hours, fml. Anywayz, ME! Who is this SilverWolf? This Techy sonnfabitch? I honestly don't even know. I'm still "soul searching." I don't even know what my given name is yet for this life. Something I will be meditating on for a while. However, I did find a purpose in a discovery of a past life. I will get into that later but for now Beliefs should be stated.

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God,
is one. I believe in A God. Raised Catholic, I default to the Christian God (or Mary) when I pray. In general I consider myself more agnostic than anything else simply because I feel every religion's God is the same single entity.

Thought,
is VERY important. I feel like the mind can accomplish literally ANYTHING! If you think about something so much for so long it will happen or it will create itself or something along those lines. I know too many people with too many stories to not believe that thought has every impact on the outcome, feel, and journey of your life. Simply put, if you think you're life sucks and shit will never get better, then it won't and you'll be stuck in a shit hole your whole life. But, if you think that your life sucks, but will be better tomorrow, and better the next day, and the next, and things will be awesome eventually, then things will be awesome eventually. Enough said. My brain likes fragments apparently....

Prayer,
varies...a LOT. Everyone prays differently. Some get on their knees at their bedside and recite a script from the Bible. Others dance in rituals and smoke some crazy shit to give them outer body experiences. I personally, just talk. I have a conversation and get everything out of my system and when I'm done I open my mind to the universe and listen to what it has to say back, this usually occurs through meditation of some sort or even in my sleep.

Love,
is the MOST important. I love everyone. Equally. There are a few that I consider more important to my life but I don't love them any more or any less than someone I just met today. And of course I am "in love" with someone but that is almost a completely different feeling. The most important person to love is the self. Once healthy love for the self is established then that love can spread to the rest of the universe so it can feel your individual essence, from the inside out.

Energy,
is everywhere. I am made of energy, so is my laptop, and the floor, and this table, and everything else in the universe. Physical mass, mental thought, and emotional tides are all made of energy. Physical bodies vibrate to some small magnitude. Every single physical mass has a DIFFERENT frequency on which they vibrate. Quantum physics explains all the crazy shit that the majority of the population think is magic or just crap like auras, reading minds, visions, alternate realities, spirits, soul mates, past lives, reincarnation, demons, whatever. Some of it is a stretch I'll admit but just because something seems absolutely ridiculous, having a closed mind to it doesn't even give it a chance to prove it doesn't exist. And just because something isn't proved to exist doesn't mean it is proved not to exist.

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My beliefs are mine and mine alone don't comment on them because to be honest, I don't give a shit what you say or what you think. Yes I'm blogging this to the world wide web for millions to see and that's for 3 reasons; 1, to let my brain ramble freely for anyone to see 2, to share my thoughts easier to those I feel ought to see them and 3, well because I damn well can.

I'm feeling free, like this lockjaw :)

Moral of the story, Live Love and Pray. Keep an open mind, listen to the universe, and live your life the way you want to. Well, I'm not telling you to do anything really... this is just what I do...and its working for me :)